I miss the uncle who dotes on me the most when im still young...
Who will call me every time he ends night shift and ask what i want & this girl will say "Org nak fish & chip"... and i get it...
When i want slippers, i called him and i got one..
Im the most pampered girl with my maternal side...
Guess thats y im the most affected one compared to the other cousins...
I remember times when he bought me football jersey and the one thing i never will ever forget is the nickname that only he uses on me "MAKMOK"....

I know the recent years was not a good one but lets not rake the past..I may not be that close to him as i used too but i still remember him being the uncle who dotes on me the most..That i'll never forget... & now seeing u lying down motionless with all the machines, it just tears my heart apart.. It just felt like yesterday was hari raya when i held yr hands and ask for forgiveness..

I dont want to hope for so many things cos i know whatever fate has in store, it is for the best..i just hope that one person will be strong enough to face this ordeal...just that one particular person, his mom............my grandmother..........

Seeing her shocked and breakdown, it is the last thing i ever wanted to see again...how i held my tears but im a weak soul who couldnt be brave for her own grandmother...all i did was to cry with her and tell her to accept whatever God has in store for us..

"Ya Allah..aku percaya segala apa yang terjadi adalah jalan yg terbaik yg telah kau tentukan untuk hamba2mu.. Berikanlah kekuatan untuk kami menghadapi ini,terutama sekali nenek yang amat3 mengasihi pak ngah...Ya Allah, kuatkanlah anak2 pak ngah untuk menghadapi ini semua...dan yg terpenting kuatkanlah pak ngah tuk menghadapi cubaan ini. Kuatkanlah semangat dier untuk terus hidup.kami sekeluarga senantiase menyayangi nya...semoga dier dpt merasekan kehadiran kami setiap hari menunggu dier "bangun" dari mimpi ngeri ini..Amin..."

You're Beautiful EP 12 part 7/7 - Call me crybaby but i really did cry at the last part when Tae Kyung finally realise that all these while Go Mi Nam loves him and not Shin Woo..As much as i love Shin Woo, i just cant deny that its another not meant to be Ji Hoo n Jan Di but a love story of Jun Pyo n Jan Di..But i like Tae Kyung confession to Mi Nam when he told her "I want u to look at me like how u've been looking at me all these while.Just continue your focus on me. Go Mi Nam, i grant you permission to like me".....AWWWWWWWWWW.... (T_T)

I had a fun time yesterday with the girls..
I miss them lots..well i miss Eunice more uh..haha..cos i just met Hidayah last wednesday..
We met at LJS and all we talked was about work..well, basically the two girls talk about work n i kept quiet eating my food..They make their working life sounds so pathetic and for ONCE, i felt probably my life aint that bad..i just have to slowly find the right job for me so that once i start my job, i am really prepared to lose most of my time and money..

Then we walked arnd JP and did some little shopping..more to ME doing the shopping.. :)
Hidayah suddenly wanted to have cheesecake..God knows why..despite being full..
So we went to Starbucks and chose the seat outside Starbucks,facing the MRT.. I definitely enjoy the spot cos we felt very free to talk and laugh over sooo many..and i mean SSSSOOOOO many stories and lame comments..we didnt even realise that 2 hrs have gone just by sitting n chatting at Starbucks alone..

We three had our cakes n drinks.although we three didnt really enjoy our choices..haha..but the stories we had was the hot issue...from poly days to the "scandalous affair" we had in school...to what we want in the future..times past when u sure are enjoying your time..thats how we felt..but not to worry, me and Eunice are meeting soon to go shopping for Hidayah's bdae present... :)

I freaking love this ep!!!! Shin Woo Oppa Saranghae!!!! I love the last part when he prevent Go Mi Nam from exposing herself, instead he hugged her, covering her face and said to the media that she is HIS girl!!!!!!! OMG!!!!! SHIN WOO OPPA!!!!

Finally my virgin fingers got their first visit to nail spa and had manicure!!
Haha..it happened w/o me planning for it actually...
Today i went for the Singhealth job position..
I kinda like the job but i guess i cant pin too much hope..
Just like MFA or SPF...
I end up feeling depressed..
But if i got the job, Alhamdulillah..

So after that i went to Kaki Bukit for another interview..
I dont wanna talk about it..Cut thing short, I went to meet Hidayah at Tanjong Pagar since she keep pestering me to have lunch with her..But uh...SHE decided to go home since she has finished her work...so we met at Tanjong Pagar then went to Jrg Point..

We had Banquet for lunch and we were just wandering around..Wanted to catch a movie but the timing we need to wait for like 3 hours...so in the end we went to cd shop as i want to find my SS501 album but it is still not available..in the end Hidayah bought Tinkerbell VCD...wakaka...Forever with her Tinkerbell...

We then went to JP2 and saw the newly open promotion for manicure...and we decided to have one..haha...Hidayah took the promotional $5 package while i take the $29.90 package since mine is a virgin hand that needs more treatment..We were both sleepy when we had our manicure done...

During the manicure session, the manicurist saw Jung Min Oppa picture at my phone wallpaper, she asked me if that was my bf... i was like WTH?!
If he's my bf uh....WWWWAAAAHHHHHHH.... :)

We then were too lazy to walk so we decided to head home and we already had plans to go for manicure session again next month!!hehe..

When im down or when theres time i need u the most, you were never there for me.. Never there... Must i still cling on to you?! ~ I dont think so.. I do not want to miss such a person..I do not want to love such a person... :)

I am missing these three buddies of mine... Joel , Eunice & Hidayah...
Oh well, im meeting Hidayah tmrw since my job interview is at the same building she's working at....